Belief & Gratitude

Belief & Gratitude Weeks 4 & 5

No, I did not forget to post about this last week (week 4), I chose not too. In my gratitude journal on January 20th I simply wrote that I was thankful to be alive, which was and is true. I just couldn’t find any of the little things in life to be thankful for that day. I was sad that I had no good little things from the day to write down. Training that week was rough too. I only logged 25 miles because I felt horrendous both physically and mentally. It never fails that when you feel horrible, really horrible physically, you have to deal with the nastiest of nasty people and you end up feeling 100 times worse than you did before. The good news is, I moved on and  week 5 was so much better because I had the mindset and the ability to let things go. I viewed last week as a week that was filled with possibility and I decided that boundaries only exist if you let them. I ran a total of 40 miles last week. I know that is not a healthy jump in milage and I know that I should not have done that. I do not recommend doing something like this. I did this because I needed to prove to myself that I can do things that seem difficult and challenging and now I will continue to train like an educated distance runner. 5 or 6 months ago a 40 mile week would have seemed like a joke to me but I have been through a lot lately and I altered my life up by going back to school so I am thrilled to have ran 40 miles last week. Training hasn’t been easy but that doesn’t mean that I am not trying. The issues I had back in December are not completely gone and although some people may not believe that they were real issues my body is well aware of how real they were and still are. Anyone who has ever had to work their way back from an injury, illness, or being sick is also well aware of the frustration and struggle that you will feel on a daily basis. My goal is not to run PRs right now it is to run–to run and be healthy. Some weeks are more about personal growth and self-discovery, like my past 2 weeks.

Here are some little things I was thankful for the past 2 weeks:

-On MLK day I had a dream and slept most of the day

-I bought new nail polish

-Phil bought me a LARGE coffee

-I enjoyed what I was learning in school

-My running friends and teammates

-Juno, the fake snow day

-Running with Brittany

-The workout I did last Thursday and the fact that it was not horrible, also the company I had while doing the workout

-Walking to the Italian restaurant in town with Phil

-A long run of 11.5 miles

-My office no longer being cluttered

One thought on “Belief & Gratitude Weeks 4 & 5

  1. I’m glad you had a good week of running and are not hurt. I do agree 25 miles a week to 40 is a big jump, but then there’s a lot of factors besides just miles like intensity, etc. Our bodies don’t know that our “running week” is Monday to Sunday” or whatever, our bodies just know “I am overloaded” if we pile on too many miles… but an 11.5 mile long run is pretty impressive! I do hope your issues get worked out so you can increase mileage conservatively and injury free.

    I’m glad to finally be able to log 40s consistently but it took me years (I am still a newbie) to work up to that. There’s something about the 40 mark where people get injured or really bad fatigue.

    A man who brings you coffee is worth keeping around. My husband did that a few times when we both worked in the same corporate office and it was so sweet.


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