Its Wednesday and why not let everyone know what’s going on? So…what’s going on Wednesday seemed appropriate. I know I’ve been kind of quiet lately and I’ve got lots of reasons for that.
Let’s see, first I still feel horrible with headaches and other issues and I can’t seem to stay awake without drinking tons of coffee. I’m being tested for celiac disease. I had a blood test this morning for that. Hopefully, something comes of it or else I don’t know what I’ll do. I’ve done everything and been tested for everything and been told countless times I need psychological help when I know I don’t because I know my body and I know something isn’t right. This is kind of my last hope for knowing what is wrong and I would be so happy to never eat gluten again if that would make me healthy.
I have a lot of work to do for grad school. Last week was rough in that respect. I only have 2 weeks left in this quarter so I’m getting down to the wire with assignments which is my main priority.
Last week I did a track workout, only the second one I’ve done since November. It went surprisingly well. It felt so good to do a workout and I hope I can repeat this in the weeks to come. The sad reality is that my running is still not consistent and I’m still feeling horrifyingly fatigued when I do run but because “there is nothing wrong with me”, according to doctors, I’m going to resume normal training next week come hell or high water. If I end up worse in the process that’s not my fault because I was responsible and sought out help when I needed it. It’s not my fault that I’m not being taken seriously so I’ll just live my life the way I choose and hope for the best because in these situations that is all a person can do. I may never run high mileage again or PR again due to feeling so bad but at least I can try.
Aside from that, I’m happy and in a good mood. The weather is better and I have great people in my life so I have no right to complain.