I am happy to report that the last 3 weeks of running have been 3 weeks that I am proud of! They are 3 weeks where I have been running consistently! My milage is only in the upper 30s but I feel great! I feel strong and I feel happy running! I have done a long run 3 Sundays in a row: 10 miles, 10 miles & 12 miles. I am really happy with where I am and the direction that my training is going.
Since unofficially selling my house moments after finishing The Philadelphia Marathon in November, I haven’t had consistency in any area of my life. It has been non-stop chaos, change, stress, and uncertainty. I’ve had 3 different mailing addresses this year and it is only mid February! Running has been a priority, but it has also been one of the areas in my life where I have had to make sacrifices. I’ve had to run in the cold. I’ve had to run in the dark. I’ve had to run in the pouring rain. I’ve had to run less than I would have liked on days when I knew I should be running more. However, I am running and I am happy about that. I am enjoying my runs but life in between the runs has been difficult because I dream of being in the Colorado mountains and I forget to be where I am in that moment. Looking forward can be great, but right now looking forward is preventing me from being grounded and present.
The 12 mile run I did yesterday (Sunday) gave me serenity. This past week I’ve been feeling defeated. I’ve felt like time is standing still, but running in a downpour yesterday helped me overcome that feeling. The rain washed it all away as minutes clicked by on my watch and the miles to go decreased. I realized that time is not standing still. I have just been choosing not to exist in the moments between the past and the future.